So much for posting regularly but I’ve had my hands full with creditors, hackers, and slackers, oh my!
Anyway, it looks like the crooked cops have won yet another round. Making me look like a criminal on paper seems to be the ultimate challenge. I cannot easily find a place to live. I cannot make money. Soon, I won’t be able to eat –not without moving in with my father and bumming off of him.
That’s really a pathetic situation for someone of my caliber and skill-level to be in.
I wish I could find a rich entrepreneur with a great idea but no way to make it work. Since I have a reputation for making the “impossible” work, I could do it once again but ensure my bills would be paid at the same time. That would be ideal. However, it seems there is no way for me to get the word out to rich entrepreneurs, because conferences where I could show off my skills will run me $2,500 or more –and that’s just money I can’t spare right now, IF I had it in the first place.
I am really disappointed in people -in general. It seems that too many people rely on the government to be honest and true when -in reality- there are times when they are not. In my experience, the words “police” and “honest” have become oxymorons. The sad part is when people won’t take a moment to see that the government might have failed someone so utterly and completely that even the faint semblance of the truth has all but vanished. That is my life in a nutshell.
I have a lot to offer this world (not that it seems to deserve it), but this world may never discover exactly of what I am capable –thanks to a few morons with a badge and a gun that were given a little more power than they should have been given. I thought they had tests to avoid these kinds of things? What ever happened to checks and balances?
I have helped a lot of people in my time, and I find that it is true that when you need help the most; most people do not return the favor. In fact, in many cases (especially when living abroad), I’ve had people STEAL from me after I helped them out of a bind.
Now is the time. If I’ve ever needed help; it is now.
I can overcome difficult obstacles and have done so many times before, but I realize now that I always had the option of getting a job or finding consulting work and not having to worry about having a roof over my head. Now, all I do is spend time wondering how to pay this bill or that bill, I cannot get a security or networking job with a felony (even though I never committed any crime), and now it seems I may not have a roof over my head soon.
Unless something miraculous happens, I will probably have to go live with relatives and bum off of them -hoping to figure out something. Even then, I’m not sure what I can do. I have so much potential and talent, but it all goes to waste when I have been labeled as a criminal. This local government is a real piece of work and the general public is so nieve and so brainwashed that I have been unable to shrug this undeserved scarlet letter.
I don’t have time to write those helpful articles, my autobiography, or much of anything because I’m working 18+ hours a day and still going backwards. The companies that pay me online have begun to stop paying (i.e. stealing my hard work) or cut back substantially –blaming the economy. That may be the reason, but they should not gleefully take my leads and hard work without paying for them. Ah well.
I’m not even sure how much longer I can justify keeping this blog or most of my other websites online. I have built up several incredible companies with lots of potential but they need some marketing capital to spread the word. Without that, they are no different than the millions of other worthless sites on the web. So, in time, I may have to take all my sites offline.
Who knows? In all honestly, I’m sick of complaining about it. Very few care and those that do, cannot help. I even annoy myself most days. So, I have to move on and try not to let it bother me, but every day that I wake up is just full of more hassles and reminders of how I was wronged and still never vindicated.
Most days I just keep hoping I’ll wake up from this nightmare and be on a real planet (as opposed to this one that sucks) where people won’t let a piece of paper written by a couple of heartless morons keep down a talented over-achiever like myself. Thanks to them, it would appear at first glance that I’m no different from the casual under-achiever anyway. Please someone just wake me up.
Share This! Social Bookmarking and Sharing
No Comments